Sunday, November 16, 2014

Coming back to life....

Hello Polish Ninja fans!!

Long time no post!! Well my life took a pretty upside down turn a year and a half ago. I tried to keep everything going during that time but after awhile it was too much. They say there are 4 events in your life that can be the most emotionally devastating to endure. I went through 3 of these events simultaneously and they lasted for months and months and months with no end in sight for quite awhile.

For the curious folks out there, I had the company I worked for announce a merger, which for while meant I had no idea if I would continue to be employed or not. When details were sorted out, it meant not only a job change for me but also a move to another state, all while battling through an ugly divorce that started before the merger announcement! Thankfully I am now moved, somewhat settled into my new home in a new state (hello Florida sunshine!)....getting settled into my new job role in my day job and the divorce is finally, FINALLY final! The last piece was the hardest to endure and there were honestly days I wondered if I would live to see the end of it! Thankfully I am on my way back to looking forward to a normal life!!!

Those that know me well know that I am the eternal optimist and carry around a very positive, bubbly attitude. During this dark time in my life I tried in many ways to keep this but was not always successful. I really don't want to go into all of the dark, grisly details of what I went through. Just please know that I am getting stronger every day and little by little I am finding my true self again. I am finally free of the abusive chains that had held me down for far too many years and the real me, the REAL Rhonni is finally free to be herself! I love being me :)

I wanted to give a huge thank you to all of my blog followers as well as my customers/fans of Ninja Polish as well. Those of you that have shown me such amazing support even through my darkest times are just incredible. You have no idea how much even the smallest words of support and encouragement meant to me during that time and still now. Sometimes the shortest, simplest word of support would have me in tears of thankfulness that day. I needed those desperately during my healing.

I also wanted to give a huge apology to everyone that was put on the back burner during this part in my life. During the dark time I could not handle even the slightest conflict or even the *thought* of potential conflict. It is a strange thing to try to describe to anyone who hasn't been there. I lost close "friends" through this who did not understand the state of emotion I was living in, a dark hole that I am thankful they never had to experience in order to understand. I remember being told that it just seemed like I was burying my head in the sand and refusing to deal with things....there was truth to that however the refusal to deal directly with some things was for my own emotional well being...I tried to find solutions and help to keep things going, but the help I needed was not there in many ways and I finally had to close...I know I should have closed earlier than I did, which many folks told me. I just loved my business so much that the thought of it going away was devastating and it still crushes my heart to think it is closed.

Through this time I also discovered friends that were far more amazing and supportive than I ever thought. True friends came to light while the fair-weather-friends have been weeded out.

Polish is one of my passions and I love it. I miss Ninja Polish desperately and I miss making polish. I know the polish world is wondering if Ninja Polish is coming back and I don't have that answer for you yet. I want to, yes, but there are necessary changes and tying of loose ends that are required before I can start on that commitment again. I am trying to work on those changes, loose ends, remaining responsibilities that were left for me to deal with not to mention rebuilding a new website basically from scratch. I am hopeful things will work out but the necessary T's and I's must be crossed and dotted before I can move forward.

For now I am going to try to blog occasionally to ease my way back into my passion. I have loads of extra polish in my stash I will be destashing via mystery bags, so keep you eyes peeled for that. What is left from the Ninja Inventory is in on hold until those T's and I's are crossed. Lots of Ninja debt to take care of with that inventory before I can rebuild, but I gotta get those T's and I's crossed before I can even start doing that. We will see how things unfold in the future.

Thank you again for all of your amazing support. I love you all!!!
xoxoxoxo
~Rhonni

20 comments:

  1. Rhonni, this had me in tears. I can't imagine the ordeal you went through but as a strong beautiful woman, you have and you will come through with flying colors. Just do you and when you are ready, customers and fans will come

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  2. Glad to know you are ok. I await your return.

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  3. I had been wondering what happened to you and your site. I never was able to try your lovely polishes. I hope you take all the time needed to get in the comfort level you want to be.

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  4. Glad to know you're ok. Whatever you need to do for yourself is most important. We will be here if and when you're ready.

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  5. I am glad to hear you are in a better place now. I have always adored your polish and look forward to the possiblility of being able to purchase it again. Thanks for sharing this with us!

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  6. Nothing will show you who your true friends are than having to deal with some of life's biggest obstacles. It's always difficult when those you thought you could rely on aren't there, but I am happy to hear you did have others show you love when you needed it most. It's good to see an update from you, and I wish you only the best, whatever that is for YOU!

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  7. Wow. Is all I can say.... But you pulled through it like a trooper. Also thank you for being so candid... It takes a lot is strength to share your personal life. We love you and we are glad to see you back. And when you're ready.... 'We will buy all the polish!' Haha... Keep smiling!!! 😘😘😘

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  8. Welcome back love. I'm glad things are looking up for you. <3

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  9. I totally understand. I feel like my life the last few years has been a constant cycle of bad news. I *think* I am finally at the end of my tunnel, and hopefully you're at the end of yours, too. So glad that you're back to what makes you happy. I will be thinking of you and you're positivity during my hard times. <3

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  10. I'm glad to hear you're coming back and feeling happier. It takes time and I know there are still difficult days, but you can get through this *hugs*

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  11. I can only imagine the relief you must feel having the dark times behind you. It is wonderful to hear that you are out from under the oppressive cloud of despair.

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  12. Yay!! So glad you're on the bounce back! Thank you for sharing, it just shows how strong and ready you are to move onward! -hugs- Proud of you!

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  13. Rise like a phoenix Ninja!!!! Great to hear from you, and that things are looking positive x

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  14. I am so SO happy to read this Rhonni! I was so sad I never got to order from you, you left right as I was getting into polish. It takes so much strength and courage to post this, I commend you for it! We've all been watching and waiting hoping for an update, Just to know your okay. Wishing you luck and sending love from Kansas <3 Keep your head up <3

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  15. Sending encouraging thoughts and good vibes your way. I hope its a smooth process for you to get all those t's crossed and i's dotted. I'm sure this wasn't easy for you to share with everyone and I applaud your bravery. Good luck with what ever the future holds and enjoy that sunshine!

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  16. Sending prayers and well wishes. So happy to see you're on the road to happiness. If you get to start making polish again, I'll be right back in line buying again. I have always loved the quality of Ninja Polish and it's the one of the few indies I have bought and used consistently. We all miss you and hope things continue to be positive. Thanks for letting us know how you're doing <3
    Tami

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  17. Like a lot of others I had no idea you were going through this. I am so so sorry for the abusive past you had. I am glad to hear you are remaining positive and things are looking up for you. I look forward to seeing you back in the blogging word and "rebuilding" your passion. I think it will be just the thing that you need after those dark times :) the nail community is such a welcoming place and I find myself lost in the kindness plenty of times. I wish you well!

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  18. Hi Rhonni, I am glad you got over the dark phase of your life successfully. Hang in there. One thing I strongly believe in is that nothing lasts forever. And since you have crossed the dark path, I believe you are walking towards light and life. I have been a fan of Ninja Polish and I wanted you to know that. Whether or not you will restart the brand, we will love you *hugs*

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  19. I couldn't be happier to have heard from you, even if I'm SUPER late in having done so. My warmest hugs to you for having to endure all you did, come out intact and *still* positive and ready to take back your life. Looking forward to shopping at one of my favorite seller's joints again! <3 All the best to you, Rhonni!

    -Sandi

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